sooooooooo........

Well, it's been awhile since the last post. Longer than I thought. A lot has happened since then. A lot of crap, but we all deal with crap and sadness and songs and loss and inbetweens and tears and melancholy and ups and downs and missing of friends. Sometimes the fear needs to be turned away. Sometimes the so called strength needs to be compromised. sometimes we just need to forget. Sometimes even the strongest of creatures feels barely bold enough to become a tiger instead of remaining the kitten everyone knows and loves. Claws, Iago, you treacherous snake! Was it Iago? I can't remember at this moment. Frankly I'm surprised I can type, let alone spell. I haven't been drunk since March at the convention, but that's on the other page, isn't it? And yes, it very much emulated Thompson, thank God, or it hardly been worth it. Blackjack was not my friend. A sad cat(not blackjack... Thompson) with so much more to give and expect. Millions of words would never be enough. How could you deprive the world of that? And still we forgive. But I digress.

I've created enemies, though not by choice. A self-defense mechanism triggers in me that seems to be destructive mostly to those around me. It wasn't intentional... know that! Numerous times I've tried to watch the movie, but it simply replays in my mind.

So many come and go, not always by choice, but circumstance. But we always have the words, don't we?